Lately, I’ve been feeling overwhelmed by life. Some of it comes from the everyday responsibilities of being a wife, a mother, and a woman trying to build something for her family. But some of it comes from learning—questioning things I once accepted and looking more closely at what I believe.

I’ve been thinking about what’s really true beyond religion, what the Messiah came to do, who rules this world, and what it means to keep walking a path that feels narrower as I learn.

There’s so much I want to unpack. Today, though, I just want to share where I am.

When the Material World Takes Up Too Much Space

The more I examine things, the more this material world feels like captivity to me. There are so many rules, bills, expectations, and demands pulling at our attention. Sometimes it feels like everything is arranged to keep us focused on surviving here, with little room left to turn our hearts toward our Eternal Father.

And yet, I still have responsibilities here. My children need me. There’s work to do, a household to care for, and a future I’m trying to help build.

I’m still figuring out how to meet those needs without letting them consume every part of me.

Motherhood, Broken Sleep, and the Weight of Everyday Life

In this season, I’ve realized that I’ve lost some of the balance I need to keep myself steady.

Caring for my children, working, and managing my daily duties has started to feel burdensome. I can see myself heading toward burnout if I don’t address it.

My husband and I have a date night once a month, and I value that time together. But I’m realizing that I also need relief in the everyday moments. One evening together doesn’t make up for weeks of feeling stretched thin.

Since my youngest arrived thirteen months ago, uninterrupted sleep has been hard to come by. That has been rough. Being needed throughout the day and then waking through the night leaves very little time to recover.

Honestly, there have been moments when I’ve felt like I don’t want to have any more children after this.

That’s a difficult feeling to put into words, but it’s part of where I am right now. I love my children, and I’m tired. Both are true.

I’ve even wondered whether these feelings are another distraction from the family goals we’re working toward. But I also have to consider that my exhaustion needs attention. I can’t keep pushing it aside and expect to feel balanced.

Building a Future While Trying to Stay Present

There’s a lot I want to accomplish: fixing my credit so we can move toward life on our land, building my business, publishing more books, and continuing to develop as a person.

Those goals matter to me. They’re connected to the life I want for my family.

Still, carrying all of them at once can feel heavy. Even when I’m doing one thing, my mind is often on everything else that needs to happen.

I’m trying to think through what would help me overcome this feeling of being constantly overwhelmed. Where can I make room to rest? What needs my attention now, and what can wait? What would make an ordinary day feel more manageable?

I don’t have all those answers yet, but I know I need to make some changes.

My Books Are Changing as I Learn

I’m also in the process of publishing more books. As I learn, I’ve been editing out a name I previously used because my understanding is changing.

I may revisit and revamp my His Worth and Her Worth book series soon, too.

That takes time and thought. I want to look carefully at what I’ve written and decide what still reflects my understanding and what needs to be revised. I’ll share more as that process unfolds.

There are also things connected to my sisterwife that I haven’t fully dissected yet. That’s another part of my life I’m still working through, and I’m not ready to unpack all of it in this post.

Still Walking the Narrow Path

So that’s where I am today: learning, questioning, caring for my family, and recognizing that I need to find balance before I burn out.

I want to keep growing closer to our Eternal Father. I also want to be present with my children and have enough energy to enjoy the life we’re building.

I’m still here, trekking along. Some days I feel clearer than others. Today, sharing this honestly feels like a place to begin.

If you’re feeling overwhelmed by motherhood and the weight of everyday life, what helps you make room to breathe?

~Until next time~